Post-Thanksgiving

Hooray! Only three more weeks of school left including finals. I am super excited and basically in the "holycrapschoolsalmostoverMUSTplaysomecatchuponschoolwork" moment. I have finished all my tests and assignments I needed to turn in prior to thanksgiving, so all I have left is my finals & one paper. Whew. So glad it will be almost over then it'll be VEGAS !

Anyways I did do black friday, I went to Walmart, Target(2x), Frys(2x),Best Buy and of course the mall. I honestly felt more excited about the idea of shopping more then the actual day. My boyfriend, friends and I met up at 9 or 10 PM , shopping at Walmart,Target, and Frys. I didnt really buy much except for 3 sets of really cute pjs that were on sale, and one set for my brother. Afterwards we went to eat at Dennys at 3AM?, and we took a nap afterwards. My boyfriend and I were planning to only sleep for 2 hours so we would wake up at 6AM, but we overslept and woke up at 8AM instead. It was okay though because by the time we got to the mall it was not crowded at all. I didnt really see anything I liked at the mall so I only bought a red beanie at cotton on. Then I tagged along with my boyfriend to go to frys again so he could help a family friend buy some stuff. I saw the Samsung dualview camera for $80 but by then they were already sold out unfortunately. So this year I had no luck with much, I think I enjoyed the experience more then buying anything. I did however buy more things online, I bought some DVD's on amazon which were under 4.99 and I bought some clothes on F21. And I'm about to make some purchases on amazon again so I could buy my textbooks and other misc. gifts. I'm also planning to buy some stuff on sephora for my mom as xmas gifts.

I hope there will be more sales on cyber monday, esp on the samsung dualview cameras which I really want =[ Oh wells, time to get some shuteye. Still recooperating from my lack of sleep. I am so glad that I DIDNT have to work this holiday season. Last year I went to black friday at 2AM and stayed awake/up most of the day until around 4 or 5 PM when I had to close at work. I didn't even get out until maybe 1AM at night, and then the following morning I had to be back at 7AM. My gawd, that was torture T___________T

Social Problems

I should be writing/ finishing my rough draft on sex trafficking for my social problems class but it is quite difficult to concentrate right now =[ MUST POWER THROUGH ! I only need 2 pages left before I can successfully call it a night and get some sleep so I wont wake up late tomorrow.

Two more days before I get to visit boyfriend & have a weekend getaway !

As of Now..

A step towards a New Beginning

I was planning to blog sooner then today but blog spot was frustrating me to no end for making the task of adding pictures to the blog very difficult.

Anyways , tomorrow is my orientation and I'M SO EXCITED! SOOOOOOOO Excited more then i can express onto one blog unfortunately. Tomorrow I will get my new ID card WHOO! Other then that meet all my professors and my fellow classmates. The school I'm attending is a a private school , but I'm enrolled in their Psych & Social Action 2 year program. I really like it etc and plus I think I've mentioned this before so I dont want to repeat myself haha

So considering this was my last week of break before school started, I havent really done much sadly. I've been reading, The Help, though basically the one movie released recently that had that girl from " Easy A" i forgot her name xD I havent seen the movie but I really enjoy the book so far.

Other then that I've also been shopping and i have so much new clothes for this winter, whoo !



Old Navy Top- which i think is really cute even though it will be fall soon


F21 Fleece Military Jacket- which i love so comfortable





Nine West Blumesco White Heels- i loveee them, they remind me of SNSD genie days for some reason, can't wait to wear them out next Sat for my friends bday and Vegas!

frustration

I dont know why but today was not a good day, not a good day at all. I feel bad that the accident occured even though it wasnt my fault. I lost my keys and I feel bad that I've caused trouble for people but what can I do? It's already been done, I can't do anything but to move on.

It sucks knowing that the one person that you think you could count on isn't. I love my boyfriend but sometimes I wish he was more supportive. I made it pretty clear to him by repeating to him that I am really frustrated and stressed out today because of what happened. I didn't need him to keep coming down on me by saying that it couldve been avoided if i drove less people or if i looked in the mirrors etc. I mean maybe it couldve but he wasnt there - he doesnt know, and what use is it to lecture me when it's already been done. I feel like my car couldve been parked and hit and he would still find a way to imply that i couldve done something else to prevent it.

His words hurt and it emotionally drains me because then I have to ask why he has to say it to me now or today- it hurts so bad. I havent cried in a while and it just came out. I'd rather get it off my chest then let it build up over and over and have it explode all at once.

He never admits he's wrong and we end up nowhere when I'm trying to talk it out so it's done and over with. Maybe what happened the past in our relationship still haunts me. It was when he angered N and he apologized and went out of his way to make it up to her. I think that hurt me a lot b/c after 2 years I still can't forget it . I thought " wow she's not even his gf and he does so much for her when she got mad at him - when I get mad at him he doesn't even do that sort of thing for me".

I don't know what to do, but if stuff continues the way it is now I don't know how much longer I can put up with it.


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i am so sad.

today some guy tried to merge into my lane but instead merged into my car hence getting a flat tire and scratches and a dent in my car.


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I opened my home door with my keys and now they are no where to be found and I spent at least 2 hours looking for them everywhere already.


Thoughts are filling my head and freaking me out such as:

a) i left my keys on the lock and someone took them hence someone will steal my car and rob my house as well

b) my keys are gone forever nowhere to be found


such a sad day :(

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Capture the moment

Recently WFP ( Wong Fu Productions) released a short called " Shell" and basically taking the concept of how a certain shell " captures" the sound of ocean waves but with the ability to capture memories that have happened or what you would want to happen i suppose. I remember in high school my friends and I would always bring our cameras and always want to take pictures of all the things we did together. It's sad how we don't do it as often anymore, maybe it was more important in high school because we hung out once in a while outside of school which made it more fun? I'm not too sure but I'm constantly wishing and hoping that I take initiative and take more pictures with my friends whenever we go out. I no longer use my camera since my mom usually uses it and plus I have an iphone which has a great camera and is able to take pictures. Even with this I still find myself not being able to whip out my phone and say "let's take a picture!" I think this is one of the things I want to change in my life- I want to capture the moments which I will look back on and remember what we did. I want those memories captured in a picture beacuse I remember the moment so much better.


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My life so far,

It's been a few months since I've blogged, but recently I felt more inspired to blog and write down my memories more often. There are so many things I want to share and to just be free to write whatever I have to say, but instead I will do them one by one but for now I just want to talk about the aspects of my life so far.

So in no particular order lets talk about my...

Boyfriend- So it's been three years already since I've been with my boyfriend. We didn't really do much , I visited him since he was still in school and we ate at a sushi buffet which was deelish! After school finished for him he quit his job so he was able to spend the whole summer with me. I don't think we did much but eat and just spend time with one another. We went camping and I guess just worked on our relationship? I don't know this aspect is hard to explain... anyways he will be heading back to his school again- two hours away ~ I think it's kind of weird because I was so used to him being there most of the time and being easy to access him. It's weird to think about that I have to get used to the routine that we usually have for the whole year. I will only be able to see him once every 2-3 weeks. I mean I know it's honestly not that bad considering other people's situations who are only able to see their bfs/gfs every few months, but I mean it's still hard regardless


School- I'm sooooo excited for school ! I start on the 26th and I can't help but be just a little nerdy considering I've finally transferred and will finally be pursuing my B.S. in psych & social action. I'm excited for the program I'm in where I won't struggle getting classes and the teacher to student ratio will be smaller , hooray for private schools! And I was soo excited to finally get an " .edu" email to get amazon prime haha


Work & Finances- In october it will be a year since I've worked at the place I've worked. I'm honestly getting so tired of retail, the pay is so small and the work I do is so easy but it's just the people I suppose. It's also really frustrating to me that some of my coworkers don't take their jobs seriously such as just not caring how they get work done as long as it's done. I would like to believe that I have a better work ethic so it just makes me sad that I try my best and no one really cares or notices. It makes me feel like asking myself why bother trying so hard? I'm on the search again to find a better job preferably something secretarial and I've applied to two places yesterday but I will see what will happen.

Upcoming Events- My friends will all be twentyone this year and we have this huge vegas trip coming up in december and I'm SO excited for it as well. I can't wait to go clubbing, see the shows, and just have a whole lot of fun. ^^

I think that's all for now - considering my brain is starting to drift off elsewhere until next time.

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Big Puppy.

^ The first day he came back from his neutering procedure, poor puppy xD


^ preneutered , i loveee his sweater ! but he started chewing it and then he outgrew it as well haha


anyways a very brief post - i'll be back though !

Obsessed.

Lately, Ive been so obsessed with smelling good. It's ridiculous, I'm reallly ~ obsessed with B&BW new scent called " Carried Away". I would describe it as a lighter better version of their sweet pea. When I first smelled it at the store I was immediately hooked and I bought this little gift set that came with a makeup bag, shower gel, spray mist thing, and lotion in the Carried Away set. I use it throughout the whole day, I'll spray myself in the morning, use the shower gel to shower, and lotion at night as well as in between throughout the day. I am just IN LOVE with that scent and prefer to smell it all day long. I'm waiting to use the coupon I received when I made that purchase to get more shower gel & the body butter in that scent. I know I'm probably overdoing it, but I just LOVE that smell so much xD On their site it mentions that the scent contains :"Lush Raspberries, White Jasmine and Whipped Vanilla" sooo gooodd its ridiculous.

On other news, I just turned 21 this friday ^^ My friends and I went to a sushi bar & grill that had a full bar ( of course !)My first legal drink was a type of mojito with strawberries, it was okay but I honestly hate the taste of alcohol regardless of how fruity. To make it worse I totally have the asian glow, but I'm such a light weight that i turn red without minutes of consuming alcohol- it's so bad and sooo embarassing =[ I dont really need people to notice I'm drinking alcohol blah
Twas fun regardless haha

Yesterday I spent my day making ice cream, that costed me $16~ to make =[ My best friend and her boyfriend bought me an ice cream maker, and we made vanilla ice cream which tasted really good. My best friend and I went to buy the ingredients and we were somewhat floored by the $$$ we had to spent on an item to make icecream, we joked that we should just buy a bucket of ice cream and pretend we made it haha But we didnt - the most expensive ingredient was the heavy whipped cream which was $5 for 4cups my goodness, ridiculous ~ But at least people enjoyed so it's all good i suppose. I also had the chance to bond with my best friend bc we havent seen each other in a while. So it was quite a nice saturday.

School is almost overs! In 2 weeks, then spring break woot !! I still need/want more time for this quarter though I have to much to dooo =[ BTW I got accepted from 2/3 colleges that I applied to so far! I'm excited, I'm not really sure where I want to go yet, just trying to wait for my last *hopefully* acceptance letter ! I'm exciteddd ~ Anyways I will try to blog during my break and keep updating, until then more pictures of max! He's gotten bigger hes about 40lbs now !=]


BOO, its not working the picture pop up thing maybe another time xD

A New Year!

I don't know or understand why I constantly blog in the wee hours of the night xD
Anyways its been a while since I've blogged but I honestly wish I had more hours in the day to do the things I need/have to do.

In Oct I was hired for a seasonal job as well as maintaining schoolwork and everything else between. I'm still working there but I wonder if I'm being kept after season =[
I know they cut a whole bunch of people the first week of jan, but they just made a few more cuts next week. It makes me so anxious, I really want to know!!

I have the same amount of units as last qtr but I find my classes this qtr to be more difficult & challenging, well it's only been a week we shall see how that goes. I'm still anxious about whether or not I'll be accepted to colleges !! AGH I still have to wait until march/early april the suspense is killing me ~ I even had a dream that I didnt get accepted anywhere( what the heck, right?!) and the rejection letters told me I wasn't smart enough BOOO which is a lie ! I just received my grades in school and I did VERY well xP

Another reason why I've been so busy is because I just got a puppy !! We got him from my boyfriends old roommate family friends. He's a beagle x golden retriever mix and is about 3&1/2 months. He's already 24lbs hes such a big puppy. He's soooo cute i love him except for his clingyness haha and when he acts out then i went to slap him but I dont xD



His name is Max btw :)